Tuesday, May 03, 2005

The curse strikes again

Out of the last five companies I worked for, four went under.

The only one that didn’t was the one I was with immediately before I came to the one I’m with now… and even they were showing signs of trouble when I left.

I don’t really believe in curses, but it’s a remarkable coincidence that this keeps happening to me, and it now seems to be happening again.

Today we got an email from the Powers That Be informing us that our division is undergoing some financial difficulties, that we won’t be getting increases or bonuses and that we are all to undergo a performance review (the thinly veiled point of which is to determine who will stay and who will go).

Why does this keep happening to me?

More to the point, what am I supposed to do now?

Truth is I don’t particularly enjoy my job. We have a team of good people who I like to work with, but the actual work isn’t interesting to me. Supply chain management systems might be fun to some people, but not to me.

The only reason I’m in this job is because I believed that working for a multi-national corporate would ensure me a certain degree of job security… even if only for a couple of years… long enough for me to develop a name, establish some contacts as well as get life’s little necessities going, like buying property. Now it seems that security is anything but certain. I have to ask myself why I’ve wasted the last year of my life doing something I don’t even like?

I feel like I should sue them for failure to live up to my expectations.

It’s yet another blow to my sense of security. Only a couple of months ago I was feeling very content… I had a stable job, a comfortable home, a blossoming relationship. Now my job is in jeopardy, my home situation is uncertain and I have no relationship whatsoever.

I have no base, no net, no support structure. I feel like I’m standing atop a house of cards that is being systematically disassembled from the bottom up.